《魔兽世界》脑癌少年的遗物 父亲的悼词

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曾在暴雪圆梦的脑癌少年前几日去世，他父亲写下了一段悼词用于悼念他的孩子，并感谢“橘子记事报”，“暴雪”，和那些所有帮助过他的人。

脑癌少年的遗物：

ePhoenix是脑癌少年在游戏中猎人的ID名，中文为：伊菲尼斯。

　　他父亲的悼词（中文）：

Ezra于周一晚上9点45分蒙主恩召。癌变侵袭了脑部的呼吸中枢，他的肺部随即完全衰竭了。但他一直神志清晰，直至命运将我们分开，尽管他已经无法说话，仍用手势和点头和我保持着沟通。Ezra承受着巨大痛苦，窒息令他陷入恐惧，但直到他死前的数小时，他仍不忘记点一客冰激凌。我曾害怕病魔连孩子的意识和回忆都要夺去，但他倾尽全力与之抗争。尽管病痛缠身，Ezra的意识一直无比顽强，哪怕大脑机能不断丧失，也毫不服输。他至死都保持着坚强的斗志和旺盛的求生欲望。他在深渊中寻求光明，在病魔怒涛般的进逼之下拓展人生，哪怕最后一丝欢愉也被褫夺，亦不轻言放弃；就我所知，无人如他那般渴求生命，他享受生活的天赋异禀，亦无人能出其右—这就是离我而去的爱子Ezra。

我写作此文的动力，源自巨大的痛苦。Ezra的死是一个悲剧，他再也无法做他想做的事，再也无法发掘自己伟大的潜力了，这也无疑是整个世界的损失。我愿以他为楷模。当病痛将他束缚在轮椅上，他开始体验魔兽世界；当光明也被夺去，他便享受音乐、和宠物玩乐、或尝试美食，甚至指挥我继续扮演他的魔兽世界角色。他的理念便是，当病痛把他的世界变得越来越小，他就更紧密地拥抱生活。他对生命的美好渴望，是我所难以企及的。

我想，纪念我儿的最好方式，莫过于学会像他那样热爱生活。这将是一个漫长的过程，因为我的至爱已经消逝，但Ezra一定乐于看到我的努力。WoW社团一直以来给予我们最大程度的关怀，在这里我希望他们也能向生活的真谛更进一步，以此铭记我的Ezra。Ezra的病痛和逝去是一个悲剧，病魔竟如此轻易地击碎了我们的生活，但Ezra面对病痛表现出来的斗志也让我明白了人的意志是如何超越病痛折磨的。同样，全球魔兽世界玩家给予我们的关爱、那些素昧平生的拳拳之心，也深深打动了我。病痛可以摧残身躯，却不能动摇一颗坚不可摧的心。肿瘤可以摧毁大脑，却无法撼动昂扬的斗志。

我深爱的儿子，他是Ezra Phoenix Chatterton，他是猎手ePhoenix，他是法师Squirlanator，他离我而去，留下无限哀思。

请记住我的儿子，他是一个好孩子，一个聪颖而热忱的孩子，一个WOW的死忠，一个爱吃糯米布丁和奶油拌面的孩子，一个在无尽痛苦中仍不忘微笑的孩子。

也请记住暴雪的关怀，和WoW社团的关爱。没有这些馈赠，Ezra的求生之路恐怕更为曲折。

感谢所有曾帮助过他的人。

你真诚的

Micah Chatterton

　　原文：

Ezra died at 9:45 on Monday night. The cancer attacked those portions of the brain that control breathing, and his lungs eventually shut down. He was conscious until the very end, and though he couldn’t speak, he could still communicate with me through hand gestures and nods. Ezra was in pain, gasping for breath, and very scared, but up to a few hours before he died, he was asking for ice cream and choosing the things I read to him. As much as I feared the cancer would take his mind and memory away from him, he held onto those as long as he could.

The ironies are sickening. Ezra’s mind was always his greatest strength, and stayed strong even as his brain was malfunctioning.  His spirit and his will to live life well grew so amazing powerful all the way to the point that his life was taken from him. No one I have ever met was as talented at finding the bright side of a horrible situation, adapting his worldview to whatever new hardship befell him, and generally milking every last drop of happiness he could out of life as Ezra, and he’s the one who is taken. The one person in my life who most loved living and was most exceptionally gifted at it, and he’s the one who is taken.

I say these things because I am in pain, because I miss my son so much, and because Ezra’s death is an undeniable tragedy. It is the world’s loss that he doesn’t get to do more, and fulfill his great potential. But I also hope that I can learn from his example. When Ezra couldn’t walk anymore, he turned to World of Warcraft. When he couldn’t see, he turned to music, or our pets, or food, or directing me to play World of Warcraft for him. The trick was that, as his world got smaller, he just looked at it more closely. If I am to take any shred of good from this suffering, I’ll have to learn from him.

I hope to honor my son by learning to love my life as much as he did. It will take a long time to get to that point, especially now that my greatest joy is gone, but Ezra would demand it of me. I ask the WoW community, who have been so generous and kind to us, to please help me honor Ezra by doing the same in your hearts. Ezra’s sickness and painful death was a tragedy, an experience that showed me a glimpse of how easily suffering can invade your life, but his response to it showed me how a strong will can overcome that suffering. As well, the outpouring of love from all WoW players all over the globe showed me how wonderful people can be to someone  they’ve never met. Our bodies are fragile, but our hearts are incredibly strong. A tumor the size of a raisin is enough to destroy the brain, but our minds are so much more powerful and immense than the brain.

My son, Ezra Phoenix Chatterton, Ephoenix the Hunter, Squirlanator the Mage, is gone. All we have left in this world are memories of him. Please remember that he was a good person, smart and clever but also very kind, that he loved to play World of Warcraft, that he loved rice pudding and fettucine alfredo, and that he went through so much pain and still found ways to smile all the way to the end. Please remember too the kindness of Blizzard, and the overwhelming love of the WoW community. Without these gifts, Ezra would still have found a way to be happy and optimistic, just not as easily.

Thank you all for helping him through the suffering.

Sincerely,

Micah Chatterton

07年5月Ezra和父亲来到暴雪

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